On this day I am 28 years old. I am female and I live in Canada. I have a University education and completed law school but haven't pursued the life of law which is something I may one day get into on here but it won't be today.
I grew up in care of the government and somehow learned to be resilient enough to make it out alive. So many of my "roommates" or other "residents" in the homes I grew up in weren't so lucky. The problem is that now I live in two worlds and they don't mesh so great. I am lost somewhere between my past and my present and still trying to find that path into the future. I feel a great sense of disconnect in life, and as Michael Franti sings in one of his songs "the more I see the less I know."
Where trauma meets triumph I sit with an open heart and a bogged down brain. Too many things to think about tonight but this is only a beginning.
This blog is my journey towards understanding, not only myself but the world and people around me. I went to a psychiatrist for help because I was starting to feel like someone different and then I realized that I always feel that way, because deep down I don't have a clue who I am. I came out with no diagnosis but elements of PTSD, Depression, and Borderline Personality Disorder. Half the time I don't know where things come from so this is my documented process of trying to figure it all out.
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